Friday, August 12, 2016

The Persistence of Nature

Written after traveling in Minnesota and Wisconsin


Who are the people who feel what the earth feels? Who are the ones who do not position themselves outside of nature, looking on with varying degrees of empathy, but understand instead that they are embedded in nature, that their cells are the cells of dromedaries and daffodils. Without them, the weeping earth might experience an even greater sense of abandonment. But nature is persistent. It doesn't give up without a fight. So even as skyscrapers rise like towers of babel over the teeming streets of coastal cities, thrusting uninhabited penthouses into the clouds, and even as the sea rushes over the streets at ground level and the water we drink is contaminated, nature gives birth to certain people who are indigenous speakers of its original language. These people are here to translate the stories of tigers and typhoons to make them intelligible to the rest of us. They are here to bear witness from inside the integrity of the cosmos, to give testimony to its grief and its yearning to communicate. They travel incognito, like lamed vavniks, the thirty-six holy people of Jewish spiritual culture said to exist in every generation, who in their essence preserve and transmit sacred teachings without ever identifying themselves. It may be that they don't even know the purpose they are serving. Still, without them, the rest of us would stumble along messing with the syntax, missing the nuance. Most of us can't grasp the long arc of nature's narrative. We are still learning the vocabulary. We think that the suffering is happening somewhere else out there, that we aren't all breathing the same air. If we are fortunate and watchful, we may stumble upon a teacher who invites us deep into the forest. Meetings between generous teachers who have something to pass along and students who are hungry for learning are not arranged marriages. They arrive like thunderstorms, unexpectedly drenching us in awareness, lifting the veil from our eyes, and illuminating the murky, cluttered world so that we can see its heart.

My eleven year-old grandson is that kind of teacher. Here he is reaching out to caress a snake like an Appalachian serpent handler, familiar and unafraid but without the religious fervor. Here he is arranging his backyard vegetable garden according to the inclinations of the plants, tomatoes next to basil as if anticipating our human salad preferences. Standing knee-deep in the creek with his sun-bleached hair winding its way down his back, he is the kind of boy who says getting bitten by a snapping turtle one day in July was his best birthday present ever. It hurt, of course. But he respects the way of the turtle and rejoices in their meeting. He is the kind of boy who floats down the river in a kayak and stops for a long minute to make eye contact with a motionless deer who stares back at him in some kind of appreciative recognition. Somehow, he has inherited the gestures of the Ojibwa and Dakota, native to his home in Minnesota, and wakes each morning to the commotion of modern urban life, feeling somewhat displaced, unnerved. I imagine being born into the wrong time, the wrong sensibility, possibly even the wrong species, might be a little like being born into the wrong gender. He might be literally a fish out of water. To cross into the other non-human world, he will spend hours with his pole and line at the pond or the creek and wait for one of his fellow creatures to visit. Then he will carefully remove the hook and throw the catfish back where it longs to be. It's their brief time together that sustains him and that gives him the intimacy with animal life that he craves. He is continuous with the natural world, an intermediary between its infinite secrets and the hooks that the rest of us hang onto. Without him, I see the trees, but rarely the forest. To me, his city-born grandmother, he is a necessary link in the chain of being. Just a boy doing a boy's thing, but somehow also an adept, a messenger and interpreter from the great unclothed world.


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6 comments:

Barbara Drosnin said...

i love this one more than anything else you've written. you know all the reasons why.

Susie Kaufman said...

I'm so glad it resonated with you. Powerful stuff... traveling, grandchildren.

Unknown said...

I waited breathlessly to see who the teacher would be and what a master he was--described so beautifully thru the eyes of one who could really see him. Mazel Tov.

Susie Kaufman said...

Thank you, Peg. There's a lifetime of learning in all of this, keeping one's eyes and heart open.

Jinks said...

Oh Susie. Each time I feel, this one, this one is the one I love the most. But this writing about your grandson and the unfolding story of the earth's weeping, his witness, reverence and empathy, this writing feels both heartbreaking and healing. How blessed you and he are to have one another.// Jinks

Susie Kaufman said...

Heartbreaking and healing seem to go together, don't they?